My mom called me today with some news. It was disturbing news, but still good news. I'll warn you now this is probably the darkest blog you will see out of me this year. Back to business though. My mom called me today to tell me that one of my classmates from gradeschool/high school's murderers were arrested. Let me break it down for you. My friend Gina (RIP) was found in her car dead behind a library in Chicago. Officially, she died of a heroin overdose, but she was raped and beaten before she died. This is the kind of crowd I grew up around before college. This is My Life. This might seem out of place for a music blog, but the song "My Life" by Game featuring Lil Wayne makes me remember the town that I have put behind me. The song discusses the lives of criminals, and they ask the question, "Dear Lord you have taken so many of my people, I'm just wonderin why you haven't taken my life". That line is what really hits me in the heart. Gina's dead, my best friend Jay is in prison for the next 3-5, Matt got 15 years, Adam is waitin on court, but it is not looking good, Andy is getting time for selling Gina the heroine that killed her, Amanda is either going to rehab or a grave, and Josh just got out and does not know what to do with himself. That's just what I could think of off the top of my head, but the important thing is I got out alive. This is the overlying theme in this tune. Basically, they talk about the mystery. Is it just luck that we escaped the life? Were we smarter than those who were taken down? If I had stayed one more week in that town would I have been just like Gina? Who knows. The thing I love about this song is that they talk about getting over the past and making a better future for yourself. That is exactly what I decided to do. I'm not "grindin with my eyes wide", I'm not living "the life of the knife", I'm just studying hard and doing my life how it should be. I hope that anyone reading cannot relate to what I'm talking about. It is not fun to see the people you grew up with dead or in jail. Sorry to be a downer but I needed to get that off my chest.
2 comments:
WOW. I'm really sorry to hear that about your friends from back home. I'm very glad everything in your life is ok. But I must add that your blog was awesome. I really liked how you took a familiar song and related it to your life. Usually when I hear songs like that I don't really think that what the singer is saying could actually be happening to someone. I usually just hear the words of the song but after reading your blog I'm really going to start listening to what is being said and the message the singer is trying to get across. The personal touch of your blog really made it stand out to me. You did a very nice job. Hope everything works out back home.
First of all, I wanted to thank you for your honesty and openess. This is a very special blog for the rawness that you included. I am very sorry to hear about this tradgey that hits so close to home for you. I can not imagine hearing this news and having to go on with classes, friends, life. I think it is good though that you have the ability to write about how you are feeling. Sometimes letting it out or as you said, getting it off your chest, can be very therapeutic. Not saying that it is going to solve or console all that you are going through, but I think it's importat for you to let it out. Also I think it's great that you are because some of your readers can relate to what you are going through. It's actually ironic, a girl I went to highschool with was involved in a stabbing a few nights ago. I can relate to your feelings when you get that phone call that you are not expecting. I hope that things are slowly getting better. Again thank you for your honesty.
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